What is the etymology of your being?

Axel Kacoutié offers a vivid personal essay reflecting on language, bilingualism and the curated gaps they have to navigate in order to access their culture and sense of self.

“Your language is a spell, an invocation speaking you into existence, rediscovering the contours of your morality, the fabric of your race and gender and how you relate to others and the world…”

Featuring the voices of the poet Raymond Antrobus and performance artist Rachel Cheung, Axel weaves together the thoughts of a number of multilingual people – including Derick Armah, Irina Niculescu, Mauricio Loseto, Olivia Melkonian, Radhika Viswanathan and Rosel Jackson Stern – into a reflection on living between languages and finding yourself in the gaps.

Illustration: Erin Tse
Animation: Luke Dye-Montefiore

Produced by Axel Kacoutié
A Falling Tree production for BBC Radio 4

Awards:

Prix Marulić Grand Prix Award 2022

Best Factual Producer Audio Production Awards 2022

Five radio producers from around the world hijack The Essay to offer a series of Radio 3’s innovative Between the Ears features in miniature, in response to Emily Dickinson’s poem ‘Hope is the thing with feathers’.

In this edition, Axel Kacoutié offers a story about a man’s journey home, which interweaves with the discovery of a lesser-known truth about hope.

Gold for the Sarah Lawrence Audio Fiction Awards.

Judges comments:
This piece broke the judges to tears – with its subtle sound design that make you feel the vibration of the trains, and the tunnels that comes and goes and pushes the mind of the listeners into this world of metaphors that transforms you; with its rhythmisation of expansion and closeness. Paradise shows what you can expect from audio fiction; that you can experience the world as if for the first time.

We are wrong to look for uniformity and objectivity. We have all mapped associations to what our subjective experience is like.

My experience of the colour red is different from yours. Our brains light up the same way when hearing water but our relationship to its sounds will never be the same.

Because of this, I wanted to illustrate how I’ve mapped mine using abstract terms like solitude, sunbathing, patricide etc. All as an attempt to say, “you don’t have to understand, I just want to connect and have you see (listen) how I relate to the world.”

Designed to listen to audio from around the world and explore ideas of intimacy and distance, the Soundhouse ‘listening rooms’ was curated by audio artists, Ariana Martinez, Axel Kacoutié and Arlie Adlington.

Soundhouse: Intimacy and Distance took place from 28 October 2020 until 28 February 2021

Room OneTranscript

And Again by Axel Kacoutié

Room One – “Art isn’t made to experience only once…this curation is an invitation to pause.”

 

About Soundhouse

Soundhouse is a platform for creative radio and podcasting, and a space for reflections on audio culture.

In 2018 it took the form of a pop-up venue at the Barbican, with a focus on communal listening and experimental events in a sensory environment for sound. This year, Soundhouse exists here online, and we explore ideas of Intimacy and Distance through three ‘listening rooms’, and four specially commissioned pieces of writing.

Co-creators Eleanor McDowall and Nina Garthwaite write here about why this theme felt apt for the ‘socially distanced world’ many of us are living in, and how ideas of intimacy and distance have always been intertwined with the way we experience radio.

Read about Soundhouse: Intimacy and Distance